I want to go to Sagada! Kaso mag rainy season na.. papayagan pa kaya ako?! Or sana maging family outing na lang para sure! at pag ganoon at least wala pa expense sa akin haha sayang, hindi natuloy ung august sagada weekend dahil sa three-week postponed ang exams! bad trip talaga iyon!
But for some reason, I don't like to be in vacation mode just yet. In vacation mode, you have lots of time again to think. And I hate thinking, right? I hate contemplating on things that are not objective, on things that have gray areas, because those are the things that no one really knows the answer. I hate feeling unsure. People who know me knows that I like being right! haha And not knowing for sure, or being uneasy is a weakness that I hate. Maybe that's what drives me to study in the wee hours of the morning, especially when preparing for oral presentations.
Hay... I just cannot help thinking of the "what ifs" in life... I hate it... It's just a waste of time and effort. And more so, when the vacation comes, when there is ample time to just stare out the window (my favorite thing) and suddenly... stuff just comes in my brain that i don't even realize that i'm thinking!
More importantly on my mind right now? Distracting me from exams? I have a friend who humiliated me in front of other people, therefore hurting me. Should I tell or not what I'm feeling? NOT! Simply because I don't want to talk anymore and I just want things to blow over eventually. So here I am, nursing my crushed ego, and the other party just rolls on by, kamustahin ka, as if nothing happened!! Now, that hurts, right? Might as well as not talk to her at all! So... I'm not. And hopefully, I don't have to during the next three weeks sa break. Sana TALAGA hindi na kami magkita at all! Ganoon kalaki ang damage sa pride ko!
Right, meron lang ata ako kaya ganito na naman ako... Distracted... Or easily distracted...
Ok, focus na... I still have three more exams to prepare for...